The Beauty Within

How are you?  I hope wherever you are, you are at peace.

I thought of you today as my sister and I drove down Sepulveda, and we stopped at the light on Western.  I looked at the window and saw the flower shop where Matt and I went to get the flowers for you.  Thinking back, it felt like I was going through a motion, or even some sort of shock.  It’s already been 6 years, yet at times it feels like it just happened.

I wonder at times if we would even still be in touch now, either through Facebook, Myspace, or in person.  Would it be an awkward “heyy, how’s it going?  Wow.. we’ve sure changed a lot” or “wow.. time sure flies by quick!” type of chat, or would we be catching up at a restaurant or coffee shop somewhere on how our last few years have been.  Would we be sharing our dreams and career goals with each other?

It’s odd that after we got to middle school, we barely spoke with each other anymore.  Then you moved away, and we never kept in touch.  Despite that, I still remember how in 6th grade you loved the Spice Girls, even when so many other people disliked them.  I’m sure you would have been so happy to hear that the Spice Girls are reuniting and going on a tour!  I also remember how you had nail polish all the time (sparkly blue colors!!), and I even remember how you were envied by so many because you had a cell phone.   I didn’t even know that you had a cell phone until somebody else told me about it.

I also remember how you and Hilary were my first friends ever after moving to Torrance.  Do you remember?

I hope you somehow got the flowers Matt and I left for you 6 years ago.  I hope you are doing well too, whether your spirit is up in heaven or on this Earth again.  I wish we had stayed in touch when we were young, and instead of writing an open letter to you now, it would be a private message or e-mail.

Take care,

Gloria